This is quiet a hard blog post to write but I will do my best.
I started University
I was up every morning at 6m organising my life, Master O's life and my house.
I would drop Master O at school and go straight to University.
I would study and attend lectures till it was time to collect Master O and then we would go to
maths tuition, swimming, basketball, cricket practise.
Rush home to do dinner, homework, the night time routine
and I would then study again till 10.30pm.
I found myself talking about getting a house cleaner,
I was looking at school holiday programmes for Master O,
I was thinking of ways to get out of weekend family events so I could study.
My wonderful husband was helping as much as he could but he was also away with work
on some occasion's.
I found myself withdrawing from my family.
When I was home I was not really present as I was all in my head.
Thinking about all the things I had learnt and all the things I needed to learn.
In 3 weeks of University I had 3 migraines , which is an all time record for me.
I sat down one night and had a family meeting with my boys.
Master O said "I did not seem as happy as I normally was".
Mr O who has been nothing but supportive when I asked him to be honest with me said
"That he felt the University had stolen me and he wanted me back".
I realised that I wanted my family life back too.
So I withdrew from University as I realised that now is not the time for me to do this.
I may go back next semester and do a paper or two at a time if that is do able with
our life style.
So suddenly I am plan less but I am okay with that as I know it was the right decision for now.
The day after I withdrew I had two new shops email asking me if they could stock my designs.
So for now I am back in my sewing room and I must confess after weeks of not sewing
I am happy to be back amongst all my felt.
I am leaving you with a quote from Gretchen Rubin that resonated with me.
To be happy:
"I need to know myself, accept myself and build a life on the foundation of my nature"